I am and this much I know

July 19th, 2010

it’s usaly a good sigen if I don’t post on here that much. But it has not bean good or bad just time for a change. A time to look after a close friend who is sick. I time to realize that in alot of ways I’m just to sensative for this biz. I’m not leaving the biz but doing what I can to keep my goodness intact. live and love everyone. I know I will.

Drama is my Biz and Biz is good

March 10th, 2010

dum da dum dum

I feel this is important to read

February 9th, 2010

http://streetbonersandtvcarnage.com/blog/i-hate-hipster-porn/

can I pay you to be my friend?

December 24th, 2009

Ooops sorry I guess when it comes down to offering money to get people to do what you want them to do with there time. Well perhaps it’s all about the money at that point. Hey more power to ya. I’ll go down a fool for loosing my as and making art in this game. I have come to understand that thats defiantly not the way to get rich in this. Okay to I’ll confess that this all makes me chuckle a bit but  honestly this is not something that I care about. It’s just one of those moments where it beocmes cleer that doing the right thing is always the right thing. blaa blaa I’ll toote this horn some where else for the moment. Karma is real and so is Santa Clause

How to figure out your rate, male.

August 24th, 2009

I found my self comeing up with this to send to someone I’m new to working with. I hate confusion about money. So perhaps this can be my boiler plate mail rate worksheet one day

The usual rate for a male doing a boy girl scene.

hope this rundown will help.

Usual rate when I started in this biz was 300 to 400.
I fell like the usual is now 500.
I find 600 is somewhat common with very solid performers.
I know those who get 700 even 800.
Some who charged 500 I notice over time should charge 600 so I tell them to do so.

I like to always pay your rate. But you can price your self out.
I don’t make movies with my money and at the end of the day I don’t own them.
We need to get paid today for are work.

This is how the biz was explained to me buy those who came before me.

is it fear?

July 24th, 2009

I think the best way to be the best is to do your best. Putting energy into slowing down your computation says something. I’m not sure what because it don’t mater. But my god is it the fear of me. It started with OMG I’m not supposed to be at your party or house. Now it’s OMG I’m no supposed to be on your set. In the long run this has no effect on me and my work as always it’s girls who suffer. I never say I told you so because I got sick of saying it… time reveals all… tick tock

so is it mind control?

July 20th, 2009

No it’s just old school bullying it seems. Let the record stand that I’m in this t see alt porn be as big and as posable. I make sure there is no glass celling for the girls I work with.

For the first time ever on this blog….

April 19th, 2009

… yes I’m on here to say… BOOM
I love it when a plan comes to gather.
it’s like the A teem but no teem and just me with the A like the scarlet letter. It feels good when the air gets cleered and the trooth shines on with it’s best friend time. Time works for me and he or she will work for you as well… give it a try… it’s old school in a way…

:)

Did your dad tell you to say that?

April 18th, 2009

When some one talks to you about your life and gives you advice. like Hay there “NAME” tell this person this “blaaa blaaa blaa”. Your supposed to just say the words not say… So and so talked to us and where told to say ” dot dot dot”.

Look I don’t care about being right honestly… Just cant stomach some of the buzz you send down the wires… and for no good reason.

Curently recharging a bit

April 15th, 2009

Some one new in my life is helping me be more relaxed. It’s actualy an old friend it’s possably the best suprize I’ll have in this life time. I need time away from this work to be helthy. I must work on Geting out of town. I’m a total nit wit when it comes to actualy leaving my kingdome for even just a few days.