is it fear?
I think the best way to be the best is to do your best. Putting energy into slowing down your computation says something. I’m not sure what because it don’t mater. But my god is it the fear of me. It started with OMG I’m not supposed to be at your party or house. Now it’s OMG I’m no supposed to be on your set. In the long run this has no effect on me and my work as always it’s girls who suffer. I never say I told you so because I got sick of saying it… time reveals all… tick tock